When You Want to Exercise But Your Body is Having None Of It!

I know...I haven't blogged in awhile.  At least not on this blog.  And there's really no excuse...though I could give you a few.  I've just been very frustrated lately and didn't feel I had anything of value to say.  But the truth of the matter is that I've been on a bit of a roller coaster with my weight loss, mostly downhill (and not in a good way).  \

My last post was in October...it's now March, that alone should tell you something.  In October, I was starting to give up on myself.  You know...the old excuses...Halloween candy, Thanksgiving, Christmas...too many temptations to overcome.  Not to mention, I was buying sugar laden flavored popcorn by the Sam's Club bagfulls just so I could get enough cloth Santa sacks (that they came in) for all my kiddos at Christmas.  Ya know, because that would make Christmas morning a little more Pintresty...I've always wanted to be a Pinterest Mom.  ;)  But to be honest with you, I really didn't even WANT to try to eat healthy.  Sure...I wanted to BE healthy, but I just didn't want to do the work necessary to get there.  I'm not sure I even believed I could...after all, I've tried for several decades and never really been successful.

Then a friend talked me into a BeachBody challenge in January.  I love a good challenge & felt like it was exactly what I needed to get motivated.  And it was!  I was drinking the Shakology and loving it.  I was eating healthy.  AND...biggest surprise of all, I was exercising and ENJOYING it!!!  Not since the time my cousin was my exercise buddy could I say "exercise" and "enjoy" in the same sentence! And even then, it was the time with my cousin that I enjoyed, not really the exercise.  ;)  But I really did enjoy the BeachBody exercise video...and my little kids loved doing it with me!

BUT...one day while exercising, I heard a "pop" and felt a sharp pain in my knee.  I had to sit down immediately.  The pain didn't last long, so I got up and kept going.  And I kept going.  And sometimes I even pushed past the pain.  But the pain never fully went away, so I checked with my doctor & she suggested I rest it for awhile (I actually got doctor's orders NOT to exercise!), take some ibuprofen and see how it did.  I'd like to say that was all it needed...but it didn't.  It still hurts when I stand up after having sat for awhile and I have to limp for awhile before I can walk normally.  Sometimes it will lock up on me while I'm walking and I end up walking like I've got a peg leg.  And the pain is worse.  So, last Thursday found me back in the doctor's office...this time with a different diagnosis.  She suspects a meniscal tear.  YIKES!  I will go for an MRI on Saturday & then follow up with an orthopedic doctor.  I'm praying this doesn't mean surgery...ain't nobody got time for that in this house!

I'm REALLY bummed!  Did I really just say that about not being able to exercise?  Why yes, yes I did!  And I'll tell you why.  I had a goal of losing a lot of weight by October...and I'm not making much progress.  Why October, you might ask?  Well, my hubby has a conference for work in Orlando that month and the kids and I always go with him on these work trips.  We are hoping to be able to do some fun things with the kids while we are there and I really don't want to be so big that I can't fully enjoy our time there...or to be physically unable to do some of the things we have planned.  So...if you are still following my blog, please pray for my knee to heal quickly and for me to find the motivation to eat healthy during this time.  When I'm exercising, the motivation to eat well is so much easier.  Pretty sure that's because I don't want to undo all the hard work I've just done!  ;)